With all of these impending changes looming over me, I am really trying to embrace them and revel in the excitement of my future. However, I am a creature of habit and I am completely terrified of change. You're probably thinking, "Wow, Linds suck it up!" and that is what I am trying to tell myself, trust me, but, my friend, it is much easier said than done.
I recently made a trip home and it was great! Literally spent an entire day on the couch with my pups. I watched TV, snuggled with Tuck, ate food I didn't have to buy, and spent some quality time with my past life. Can you say incredible? People might find it weird, but might comfort zone is 100% my parent's bed. That is easily the one place where I am invincible, content, and feel like the 12 year old kid clueless to the large, challenging world we live in. The only problem is that the older I get the less and less often I have the chance to visit my past life of a sweet and innocent childhood. Side note: In my mind it is considered a past life because the only things that haven't really changed are my love for pups, Full House, and ice cream and my distaste for pickles. Most everything else about my life has been tainted by responsibility...
Alas, I am a week away from being a college graduate (cue: somber music because of all of the impending responsibility). And I am working so hard to talk myself into all of the changes that will be thrown at me, which has mostly come in the form of me being mad at New Orleans for her awful weather, bad streets, poor infrastructure, etc. (New Orleans, I know we are in a fight right now but I promise in two months I will deeply miss you and apologize for the resentment I feel right now. Please forgive the only coping mechanism I find myself being able to use right now.). To justify my feelings just a little bit, it has rained nearly every day for the past two weeks and Broadway has been under construction for months now-- my poor car is ready to jump ship and move back to the beautiful, smooth roads in Colorado.
Today when I was packing up my room I saw the memory book I made of Sophomore year. I flipped through it and was reminded of all of the fantastic times I have had at Tulane, especially then (I will forever tell anyone and everyone that sophomore year is the best year of college and they should do whatever they can to make it last as long as possible)! But then I remembered that I will get to make a scrapbook of all of the things I have experienced this past year and I will be able to make one of the things I will experience in the coming year, too. Life is not over, it is just switching things up on me, keeping me on my toes.
Here is to me accepting, embracing, and welcoming these changes. And also finding a new comfort zone that is a few time zones closer. I have 4 short, glorious, responsibility(ish)-free days until my family gets here to celebrate graduation and damn it I am going to make them count! Besides the rooms and I have a lot of Bucket list lines to check off still. I am going to close with this perfectly timed and touching quote that Tulane sent out in their "Faculty Advice to the Class of 2013" by Dr. Latha Rajan of the School of Public Health, "Life is not going to be a smooth ride, but with a smile on your face and determination in your heart, you can achieve anything".
For now,
Lindsay
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